ALONE AT YOUR PARENTS HOUSE AT THE END OF FEBRUARY ❋ Kristina Mahler

I must remember to not look inside my own mouth too much
My body betrays me on a whim

Unable to tell the difference between good and bad
Things are not as bad as you think until they are much worse

I dream of you at the bottom of a well but you are not struggling
I want to see you holding flowers but you prefer the dirt

I wake up each morning to prevent accidents
And read the omens in the dishwater, in the lines around your mouth

It is important for me to feel beautiful in times of crisis
But I think you prefer when I am ugly

I think back on the hours I have wasted on sex and what I would trade them for now
I am so much more interesting when I’m alone

Always wanting to be strong but never being strong
Always talking about being strong but never being strong