DAYDREAM IN ULTRALIGHT BEAMS ❋ Precious Okoyomon

I’m not doing the things that make me a fun and exciting person.

I keep doing this thing when you catch me looking up at you , like apologizing when it’s really not necessary.

creating space / to integrate this system of unbinding / i keep thinking i know what i want .

and then it’s over the wanting.                                                 i don’t think                                 i’m here yet.

well okay. i was looking at you wanting to be this person

 

a person who is taking slow deep breaths

repeat the motion to continue

thoughts causing our feelings and behavior

a burrito is causing all my problems

u are mad. i am sad. u are pure.

create blank space/ a subtle thing to say

don’t push me i’m doing my best.

we fight you storm off

I take a bite of my burrito

The rain soaks the fresh moss

The producers check the light

The directors give us notes

i shouldn’t have done that “for future reference”

are you okay / make eye contact / i am sorry

i’m sorry is a fake word and people should stop using it

action is an isolated memory / slow down/ repeat the question

our thoughts cause our feeling and emotions.

quiet and solitary contemplation

safe spaces in other people

return to sender

i drop my burrito and infinitely i run toward your 2015 honda fit

“wait dude stop” “i’ve finally transcended and my ego death has come”

i look at the screen with a bleak and tired facial expression and blow bubbles at

the computer monitor

this is the reality I’ve created around me

Disorganized

everything is moss

everything is stupid

you are a stupid creature

i am a stupid creature

we are learning repeated actions to make us better

SERIOUS LIFESTYLE CHANGES

soon we will be better

no more problems

no more moss

no more burritos.