HEY GUYS THIS IS AWFUL ❋ Hiroki Tanaka

tell me television does her body fit?
i wrk as a gamester at Ubisoft Entertainment.
i pulled a dudeʼs finger which
i think means i’m in on the joke. every morning
we have a “scrum” which uh, i think means
we’re doing more of the same today which is
destructive testing.

after wrk i hang out
at Mark and Janice’s. she’s a therapy student
and he’s a teacher. good ppl. they watch
a lot of tv. there’s something about
accepting things as they are and getting
what u want out of it. i chilled with a dude who’s
supposedly pretty cool, but i couldn’t shake
the feeling i was talking to a really hip productions
manager.

i’m feeling very earnest today i think that
means i’ll have a breakdown soon. i met this girl
who looks good on facbeook, but i’m scared
of the face she makes when we fuck.
makes me want to watch tv. there’s a kid half my age
who doesn’t stutter when we scrum. Frank,
our QA Lead, hates him but our productions manager
thinks he’s pretty cool.

the kid says he’ll never fuck a fat chick. i’m feeling very
dizzy lately and i feel like everyone else has figured out
this unrelieved vertigo. i try not to look
at her face when i fuck her and i pull her hair hard.
she likes that.

Frank likes ikebana and buys us hi-chew. he has
an arranged marriage with a wife in cambodia. i met
this girl at a poetry reading and i got scared
of her face when i told her i read poems earlier.

the kid wasn’t actually that bad
he was just trying a little too hard to get
what he wanted out of it. on microsoft lync
he told me he thought the “i need feminism
because…” pictures were stupid. i got
pissed and told him how he was a misogynist
and would grow up to be a worthless
douchebag and that the world is fucked up
because ppl like him only focus on what they want
and not whether it’s right to want or not.

i may have made him cry at his desk. i broke
up with her and told her it was because i was
trying to “fix myself”. she txted me saying she didn’t
understand why we couldn’t “grow together”.
i told her i thought this was something that i should
want.