I LOST TO CAPITALISM A LONG TIME AGO ❋ Cortney Cassidy

i suggested cheeseburgers and donuts for lunch
but everyone said no
they are all very
positive and relatively happy
and go on “very relaxing” vacations

while i casually mention things like
toxic shock syndrome and silence is violence
when my manager told me i should voice my
opinions more

i unfocus my eyes so they no longer look
at anything and just sit in their sockets
until my computer screen is a blur
and my hands rest still on the keyboard
i stay this way for about five minutes at a time

i wish i was at home being sad instead
of proving myself in the world
because i’m trapped in a career
and i can’t pay for my education with depression

i should have stayed where i was
driving really fast in the desert while listening to
the faint