15 Aug Rosamund Mather
Listing My Disappointments
This person who’s looking at you for more than a second doesn’t find you attractive.
They’re trying to figure out if they know you from somewhere.
The first words you speak each morning in a foreign language
Will always come out a garbled mess and give you away.
At the doctor’s, I’m always surprised that I can visit the toilet without hassle.
But it would be a pretty lousy doctor’s if there were hassle.
I’ve stopped shaving my legs, but it’s not in a cool, fuck-your- beauty-standards way.
It’s in a dejected, hope-doesn’t- live-here way.
The guy working as a waiter at St Oberholz while I’m working as a translator at St Oberholz
Likely doesn’t own a nice portable computer as the vast majority of his patrons do.
The furniture on Berlin’s inner suburban streets is not the inherent kindness of strangers.
It’s on its way out and these strangers can’t dispose of it in a proper manner.
Dating in the sense of going on dates together.
Not dating in the sense of not telling anyone.
Things are basically nice: I’m living in my favourite city in the world.
But I might be happier somewhere else.
Rosamund Mather is a writer, editor and translator from the UK, living in Berlin. She has a blog at roseailleurs.net