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WHEN YOU WERE JUNG ❋ Mallory Smart
you began like two people on a rock
you stood, drinking coffee on a rock
your life in shambles on a rock
and you are still on your rock and it is spinning
you wonder if there is other sentient life
you wonder if there are better things to do
and so you find better things to do
you hold hands with some boy on a rock
you place mouths together on a rock
swallow down spit from time to time
you watch other people say nothing
you watch lights glow from palms, eyes attached to their palms
you are alive
the wood you breathe grows with flakes of green
your cigarette soaked breath huffed into tiny bursts of sun
your light spills out of your mouth
everyone IS and everything in your life IS perfect
you are okay as you are
you are as okay as you will be
you will devote a lifetime to being online
you will devote a lifetime talking to strangers
you will devote a lifetime and in that lifetime you will receive dick pics from tinder
dick picks from facebook
dick pics from whatsapp
and dick pics from twitter
you will sit and read poetry
tiny specs of space dust fall will upon the ground where you sometimes sit
atoms split and the universe tears
somewhere near perhaps, someone is thinking of kissing you
and you are there where you sometimes sit, thinking of kissing them
neutrons pop in the air above and go flying
you will watch and seriously try to think of something clever to tweet
you will think from the standpoint of someone better than who you are, a celebrity perhaps
maybe Tegan or Sara
and eventually the concept of existing will lose all meaning
the glitches in the matrix will soften the blues in your eyes
the contours of your face will shine
digital catfish will bottom feed off the bottom feeders
water will trickle down the hills of your body
you will miss the time that now is dying
and will want to live in this world forever
you watch from where you sometimes sit, a blackout blur the the lines between two people
you see the world unite into one gigantic muted yell
a girl cries to herself in bed
she’ll stay awake at night tweeting: the gaslight is not done gaslighting
you will open your mouth wide enough to swallow the sun
and you will swallow the pain
from a mouth once swigging pbr
from a mouth that can recite all lines from archer
from a mouth now pressed against yours
from a mouth that means more than any other mouth that seriously still drinks pbr
you will say that there should be a crushing effect to all this crying
you will try to see all the beautiful
you will say that indie music something that is here to stay
parents will say that your life is an unproductive waste of time
parents will say that you should get a job
but there are beings predisposed to living online
your love is like a tiger meme, it needs to be digital
you will say just about ANYTHING about everything because you can
and considering building 7, anything is possible
when you was younger, you were told you could become anything you wanted
you became antisocial and addicted to web 2.0
you will wake up every morning unaware of what to do next, aimlessly wandering
you will wander with your macbook searching for a room that you might fit in
your favourite room to fit in in is in Starbucks
you will still not know what to say to the Starbucks barista every morning…
you will think of the new world order and how capitalism will destroy us all
you think we should hold hands online and live together forever
you will dream of this new world
and worry about how people fade everyday
there is a world that they fade to that hasn’t been discovered yet
a world that exists without Snapple facts
you live in a world that has them
you will look under the lid of your Snapple and read- “Snapple fact #5621: depression is just the feeling of being sad”
in the end everybody will know you are sad
the book you read is sad
the words you type are sad
there is a kind of sadness in the way that you tweet
you will stay up late tonite tweeting fucked up things like
and you will go to sleep in your bed wishing that you made someone happy